Reflection Essay |
I'm not good at language arts and that can be seen in my grades I get from this class but I do try. it's never the same amount of effort that goes into the assignments It's always fluctuating, some get more effort than others because sometimes I'm just done and want to sleep. the ones I put less effort in had higher grades which is the strangest thing to me, but there has to be a reason for that right? Today (Tus/ 13/ June) you said something along the lines that essays that have your own voice tend to do better than the ones that alter it to make it sound smarter.
That made me wonder if that's why the ones with less effort got better grades Because if I don't put the effort in it I'm not going to go out of my way to make it sound smarter than I am. Now you are probably reading this going “Ummm no you got bad grades because you just suck at writing” but that's cool, its fun to think of the things that are not likely! I have learned many things about myself and my classmates from this class (mainly Devin because of his unhealthy obsession with artichokes). One is that I still suck at talking to groups of people about things I don't have a 100% grasp on. I just thought about this, I don't just suck at talking to people, I'm not good with working with them either. Which is the strangest thing because I love to talk about every little thing but I will freak out if I'm around people I don't know talking about things I also don't know. Now, why don't I know the topic I was given to talk about when everyone else does? Simple, I'm not good at annotating. I want to say I am if I like the topic but that would be lying to myself and you. Being told “ok read this thing that you have absolute no interest in” kills me. By this time of the day my medicine is wearing of and focusing becomes more of a struggle especially when I don't understand the topic. A good example of this would be poems, I don't get them and the frustrates me. I prefer when things are straight forward to the point where I don't have to think too much about what they are trying to say! If I was capable of breaking apart things I would understand them, even when you were trying to teach us how my brain felt like it was gonna pop like balloons being dragged deep underwater. Even though I suck butt at all this the fact that it makes my brain hurt so much means I'm trying. Heh, when I think about my brain in your class I imagine a person trying to walk a cat but the cat is just not having it so the person is having to drag it along. Off topic I know but hey that can be a metaphor or something. I'm so gonna get a bad grade on this but I enjoyed typing it up. |